Personal Introduction

Welcome! My name is John Roselle, SJ, and I took lifelong ("perpetual") vows of poverty, chastity, and obedience as a Jesuit on August 13th, 2011 after a two-year novitiate. I am now a Jesuit Scholastic for the Wisconsin Province of the Society of Jesus. I will study philosophy and theology for the next three years at Loyola University in Chicago. At the same time, I will do part-time ministry in some capacity with the poor. After that, I will likely teach for three years before finishing three more years of theology. Then, God willing, I will be ordained a Roman Catholic Jesuit priest! It's a long road, but a blessed, fun, and enriching one. This blog exists as a resource for friends, family, and others who are interested in my progress through the Jesuit process of formation. Every day is its own adventure, and I am happy to have you along with me to share in this. This blog contains my own personal thoughts and should not be taken to speak for the entire Society of Jesus. Feel free to contact me. God bless you!















Thursday, June 30, 2011

Stereotypes, the Suppression, and Surrender

This is a brief reflection paper that I wrote for the month-long Jesuit History course at Regis University in Denver (a Jesuit school) that I am taking with all of the novices from the U.S. and Canada.  It treats the issue of the Suppression of the Jesuits in 1773.  The Society was restored in 1814.  The reasons for the Suppression are complex, and would require a longer paper.  These are just some applications to one aspect of my perspective in the Jesuits.
Pombal from Portugal proudly expelling the Jesuits by ship
            Inevitably when I meet a person who I judge to be a “conservative” Catholic, I feel like I am going to be judged as a “liberal” Jesuit.  I want to wear a shirt that screams “Trust me!  I’m orthodox!”  Indeed, I often find myself clarifying that the stereotype of renegade-Jesuit does not apply to my case (or for that matter to many others).  Hearing this, the other person sometimes suggests that I can “reform” the Jesuits.  There are multiple dimensions to these exchanges.  Part of my defensiveness is that I want to have credibility, which in my mind can be lessened by the prejudices in some corners of the Church against Jesuits as being semi-Catholic.  On the other hand, I also want to be accepted, respected, and viewed as of value (not danger) to the Church to which I am seeking to give myself.  Finally, I want to have that kinship and mutuality with a group of Catholics with whom I have a lot of common ground.  Regardless of why I defend myself in the face of stereotypes of the Jesuits, the experience of the Suppression of the Jesuits in the eighteenth century provides an example of the kind of surrender that is needed in order to live Christ’s sacrifice in the midst of turmoil surrounding the Society.
            It is striking the amount of loss that Jesuits must have felt when they saw their beloved congregation vanish before their eyes at the hands of the Vatican, which sided with various European powers in deciding that the Jesuits should be suppressed.  Jesuits had made some powerful enemies, were misunderstood, and suffered for doing courageous things, such as their work in the missions.  When they were suppressed, Jesuits experienced much shame and consternation. In these ways, they were in union with the life of Jesus, the son of God the Creator, who came to earth only to be brutalized by His creatures.  The Jesuits, like their Lord, bore this cross with grace.  Jesus did not spit back at those who spat upon Him.  As Scripture says about the Suffering Servant, “Though he was harshly treated, he submitted and opened not his mouth; Like a lamb led to the slaughter or a sheep before the shearers, he was silent and opened not his mouth.” (Isaiah 53:7, NAB). 
Am I living out this mystery of redemptive surrender?  Oftentimes I am not, but rather clamoring to clarify matters, more so than bearing this cross of suspicion of the Jesuits.  And let us face it; none of us is fully innocent as was Jesus.  We all need reform and conversion.  Surely some Jesuits have made mis-steps before and after the Suppression.  In fact, our General Congregation has embraced the fundamental reality of all Jesuits as “loved sinners.”  The chastisements that we face from many areas of the world are a way of “bearing one another’s burdens” as Scripture encourages us to do as the Body of Christ.  This can be painful, but that is the nature of sacrificial gift. 
Overall, it is amazing to see the way that Providence allowed for the Suppression to occur and for it not to be the permanent end of the Society.  In fact, I was surprised to learn that some think that the Suppression enabled the Church to use the Jesuits as a scapegoat to appease European rulers who may have otherwise gone into schism like England did.  Thus, Jesuits’ pain was perhaps the gain of unity for the Church.  Jesuits who lived in this age suffered tremendously and had to surrender.  That could be the only way of getting through such dark times.  Yet that was only a phase that was eventually overcome in the light of the Restoration of the Society.  By the 1960s, the numbers of Jesuits had surmounted pre-Suppression figures.  Perhaps we Jesuits are now in another phase of semi-darkness, as we are suspected and diminished on many fronts, whether from within or without, whether rightly or wrongly.  Instead of fighting those who fight us, let us quietly yet boldly keep the good fight as did the Jesuits of the Suppression, all the while surrendering this fight to God. 

Monday, June 13, 2011

How Do You Know When You're Ready?

Recently a college student I know who is thinking about the Jesuits asked me how I "knew" when I was ready to join the Jesuits. This is what I wrote.

"PFor me, it was a matter of being picked up and carried by the Lord in the midst of a dark and weak time in my life.  Indeed, St. Paul is right that His power is made perfect in our weakness.  Although I had been struggling a lot as I finished my second year of teaching on the Pine Ridge Indian reservation, it was accompanied with a deep joy and freedom to be able to take these steps.  I wasn't 100% ready, but the Lord gave me the grace to NOT have to be 100%.  I transcended a lot of my usual perfectionism, by God's grace, and I could go forward with the application in the midst of my incompleteness.  Does that make sense? 

If I may offer a word of wisdom: allow this time of anticipation (and perhaps some impatience) to really be a time of great preparation of your heart for what is to come.  Just as a couple needs to let the dating/courtship period expand their souls and deepen their bond for their future marriage (through self-discipline for example, in the practice of chastity), this time of "courting," so to speak, the Society of Jesus has the ability to aid you in laying the groundwork for the kind of Jesuit you most truly want to be.  Rhetorical/reflection questions: "what kind of Jesuit do you want to be?"  (in a word, a phrase, a pithy paragraph) and "how can your life-situation now, combined with an openness to God's infinite graces, assist you in becoming that kind of Jesuit?"

Also, you may listen to this song (just listen, no need to watch the video).  It is called "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller. You may relate to it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6X71sXagUY

Last Call on Vow Invites

Dear Friends,

For some of you, I still need your mailing address ASAP (I have to turn in addresses in the next day) to send you an invite to vows on August 13th.  I understand that you may likely not be able to make it, but if you would like, I still can send you an invite as a memento.  Thanks very much!


Yours in Christ,
John

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Great NBC Vatican Footage

Here is a link to recent clips from NBC's Today Show that really give a good glimpse into the goodness of the Pope and the Church.  They tackle an inside-look on his daily routine, what it was like for Matt Lauer to meet the Pope, and the Church's response to the abuse scandal, as described by Archbishop Timothy Dolan of New York City.  They are quick and there are more are on the left-hand side-bar.  Enjoy!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/43249590#43249590

Catholic Stationery

I was just making my rounds with a couple friends to a Catholic bookstore in Tulsa.  That can be a dangerous place for my pocketbook, and alas, I couldn't resist buying some bold Catholic stationary there, which is also sold through the following website.  It is economical, beautiful, and faithful.  As theologian Hans urs von Balthasar taught, it is beauty that helps guide us to truth.

Receiving a hand-written note in and of itself can be good news, but surely this stationery can help share the Gospel all the more.  Check out this great website, and on the left-hand column click on the stationery options.  They also do address labels, business cards, holy cards, and much more:

http://www.catholicstationery.com/

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Addresses Needed for Vow Invites

Dear Friends,

Peace of Christ!  I hope you are well.  Thanks for all of your warm wishes following my news last week.  I am back safe and sound in Oklahoma for a week.  During this week, in addition to down-time and fun with friends/family, I need to collect the addresses for the invites to the vow ceremony.  

If you would like an invitation (regardless of whether you are coming), please send me your address in the next 2-3 days.  Please email those promptly at johnroselle@gmail.com

Also, due to the nature of the vow of poverty we will be taking, the Jesuits request that there not be any gifts given.  However, if you would still like to give a gift, let me know, and I will suggest a couple of favorite charities :)

I understand that there is a great likelihood that many of you will not be able to make it (since it is up in St. Paul, MN), but if you any of you are willing and able to be there, it would be a great joy.  The Jesuit vow ceremony is quite dramatic and moving.  There will also be a number of opportunities for meeting my Jesuit brothers/friends/family, and for celebration.  If there is anything I can do to help make the trip more convenient for you (i.e., arranging pick-ups and drop-offs from the airport, carpool, etc.), please don't hesitate to let me know.  Below are links for two hotels from which my brothers and I are pursuing a group rate discount (soon to be established).  They are both nice and less than two miles away from the where the ceremony will be.  

Holiday Inn Express

Best Western

Finally, here is the schedule for the weekend.  If you can only make a part of it, that is fine too!  Thanks and God bless!

August 12th:
4p-7p: cook-out dinner for guests on lawn of novitiate
8p: vow vigil service

August 13th:
9am: Vow Mass
10:30: reception

5p: Italian dinner hosted by Roselle family

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Big News!!!

The First Jesuits

This past Wednesday, I met with my Jesuit provincial, Fr. Tom Krettek, and he let me know that I have been approved to take perpetual (lifelong) vows in the Society of Jesus this August 13th!  This was a true JOY, and I am excited to be able to take this step.  It has been a long-time-in-the-making, and it is of course only the beginning.  In fact, I will report to Chicago for 3 years of philosophy/theology this August.

So, why am I doing this?  Well, the short answer is: Jesus Christ.  Since falling in loving with Jesus (and desiring to follow Him) my sophomore year in college, I have been drawn to this way of life, as a way of responding to and sharing God's love and salvation with the world in a radical way.  Naturally, at times I was conflicted and confused as to what I was called to do in life.  I have finally surrendered and admitted to myself that although marriage is quite attractive, what seems to deeply satisfy and fulfill me is a life of spiritual fatherhood, dedicated to the Bride of Christ, the Church.  It is to the Church (and the world at large) that I want to make what Blessed John Paul II called "a sincere gift of self," through a life in the Society of Jesus. This life--like marriage--should be one full of love, joy, and sacrifice, as is any true vocation.

Despite these dark days of scandal, division, and disillusionment (during which I too have been shocked and appalled), I still believe 100% in the Catholic Church (which is the people of God guided by the Pope and bishops), the holy Catholic priesthood, all Catholic teachings, and the universal call to holiness.  The 8 other Jesuit novice-brothers with whom I will take vows are first-class, committed, funny, faithful guys.  They are a great hope to me and to anyone who meet them.  Please pray for all of us as we prepare to take vows!

Below is the schedule for the ceremony.  It is a beautiful liturgy, and I would love it if you could make it.  Please send me your address at johnroselle@gmail.com if you would like an invite!

August 12th:
4p-7p: cook-out dinner for guests on lawn of novitiate
8p: vow vigil service

August 13th:
9am: Vow Mass
10:30: reception
5p: Italian dinner hosted by Roselle family

Finally, I would like to share a few paragraphs from my 5 page, single-spaced letter to the Provincial requesting vows.  It should help flesh out more why I am doing this.  Thanks for your support!


"Peace of Christ!  It is with joy that I am writing to you, my Provincial, to request your permission to pronounce First Vows in the Society of Jesus.  The novitiate has been a place of profound growth for me as a man of faith, companionship, and service.  If I had to narrow my experience of the novitiate down to one word, I would say that this time has been about “acceptance.”  Paul Tillich suggested that faith involves the “courage to accept acceptance.”  Indeed, I have received graces of accepting myself and my fellow Jesuits as “loved sinners” who are called to be disciples and apostles of Jesus Christ.  The past year and a half in the novitiate has also prepared me to answer for myself the following question: am I, at the deepest core of myself, a Jesuit?  I believe that the answer is “yes,” and so I will explain how I have arrived at and accepted this conclusion, which I hope is really the commencement of the rest of my Jesuit life.

My sense of calling to the Society of Jesus is rooted in my experience of community, through what I call the grace of the First Companions, who were devoted to God, souls, and one another.  All of my life I have been blessed with marvelous friends, yet God truly outdid Himself when He gave me the brothers that I have been given in the novitiate and in the wider Society.  Early into the novitiate I noticed that I loved my brothers, whom I truly admired, trusted, and cherished.  Indeed, our class seemed to have a special spirit of mature mutuality in the midst of our diversity.  In addition to our common sharing of faith and mission, we have had so much fun together.  I perhaps have never laughed as much as in those first months of being with them!  I have also been able to enter into spiritual depths with my brothers.  After nearly a year together I could say that if they were all priests, there is not one of them to whom I would not go to Confession.  I could never have asked for the quality of brothers I have had in the novitiate...It is with these men that I want to live and die in the Society of Jesus.