As Vows speedily approach, I thought I would spend some time explaining the internal dynamics of this time. This is a sacred time in life, one of expectation and wonder. I am reminded of Rudolf Otto's description of the sacred as the "Mysterium tremendum et fascinans." I think that Latin phrase says it quite well. The vows are mysterious. The vows are tremendous, causing some trepidation. The vows are also captivating, being a focal point of desire. This is not unlike the preparation I would think a couple undergoes before the Sacrament of Marriage. Thus, it is a time of profound joy.
Last summer in Peru, I remember walking up a hillside with one of my second year brothers to an archaeological site of human sacrifice to the sun-god. It was precisely 50 days until he took his vows, and so I quipped, "Only 50 more days, and YOU will be made a holy oblation before the Lord." He did not find that overly funny. Yet then and there I made a mental note that although vows would indeed entail much sacrifice, if I did not feel deep JOY at that point the following year, I probably should not proceed toward taking them.
Thankfully, there has been a consisent peace, joy, and feedom in stepping toward this sacrifice. I am quite aware that I am going to be receiving A LOT, and not just giving. Even though poverty, chastity, and obedience may sound like a real pain (and they are modeled on Christ's life of sacrifice), I can have confidence in His words that what is given up for His sake is given back one hundredfold.
One of the greatest parts of preparing for vows is that I am not doing it alone. I have 8 amazing brothers who are right here with me, every step of the way. I also have a worldwide brotherhood of 15,000 who I will be joining. Most of all, this is an opportunity to grow in further union and fidelity with the God of love.
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